Rabbi Jacqueline Ninio
Emanuel Synagogue
LAST lockdown I wrote a “to do” list which included: “bake bread, learn guitar, cook nutritious meals every night for family, clean house (even behind the couch and places people don’t see), do yoga (including learning to put my leg behind my head and look happy) and post on TikTok…” you get the idea.
Of course, I did not achieve any of the things on my list and I felt terrible, like I did not “do lockdown” well.
This lockdown, I decided to throw away the list. Things seem a little harder this time around, more challenging, so I have made an effort to be more kind; not just to others but also to myself.
I think we are often very good at giving others the benefit of the doubt, being gentle with them, but forget to do it for ourselves. So, I have tried to remember that just getting through every day, is a huge achievement and is enough.
The Shabbat continues to be a haven and a sanctuary. A time of the week when I notice the day of the week, am more mindful and present to my family and congregation. Connecting with community through online services has been a true blessing, hearing and singing the music of Shabbat, listening to inspiring words, sharing Torah and life moments from the week has been especially important.
Also trying to get outside every day and walk, noticing the changing nature as I walk by, feeling the breeze, the sunshine, the moonlight and sometimes the rain. I am so grateful to have been vaccinated and can’t wait until we can gather again but in the meantime we feel the presence of community in many different ways and when we are able to be there for one another, we know we can weather this storm together.